"Circle" by Edie Brickell & New Bohemians seems to be an appropriate theme for me at the moment; just replace the friend with food
I have had some trouble with my mental and physical health for about 10 years now, and to help me get over my arthritis, my mother had sent me this excellent book
which had quite a decent amount of information and tips that really made me motivated to get myself better. Due to the fact that for years I've been taking meds that affect my intestines, my condition just got worse (all that the meds do are suppress the symptoms and give me "energy," and ultimately, makes the entire condition worse with the side effects) and I began developing allergies to, I think, gluten, dairy, and probably anything with caffeine. Not the sneezing, eye-itching kind of allergies, but the one with delayed reaction with fatigue, headaches, cravings, foggy brain and such.
Anyhow! I began the "arthritis diet" consisting of fresh fruits, veggies, and supplements. It requires one to avoid many delicious staples such as wheat, eggs, meat, dairy and chocolate. Although I did see improvement in health overall, what killed me was the fact that food was my addiction. It also didn't help that my husband would bring home delicious take-outs and junk food and eat it right in front of me! "Be strong!" I told myself. Eventually though, I gave in.
I still do the veg+fruit smoothie twice a day, and have attempted a lot of gluten free, vegan cooking; most failed, and today was one of the worst days for that. Really am hoping to conquer this, and I know I will! Just give me time!! But for now....
I quit, I give up, nothing's good enough for anybody else...it seems~